Well, life has gone on as usual. Passed my first TB test and went back for my second one today. It was a little bit more painful but I don't have pain in my whole arm. That is progress, at least. If all goes according to plan then I will start my job on Tuesday, which is actually my orientation session. The last one was actually the initial interview, lol. I guess I got a little bit confused.
On Friday, I am spending Easter with my family. I won't get into the deets, but there will be a lot of relatives there that I haven't seen in a couple of years. There are a few reasons for that, the main reason being that I don't always get along with my mom and dad when we are in close proximity like that. I have gone on trips with them in the past and it has been fun, but a lot more bickering and arguing then I could handle at the time. Plus, I don't particularly like traveling and neither does the lovely. We occasionally travel, but his schedule is very rigid and he doesn't get weekends off, so he has to use his vacation time when we actually do have vacations and things like that.
But I have decided to suck it up this time and actually go with them. I can't imagine it going very positively, but on the same token I can't imagine it going very negatively either. I think it will just be kind of okay, which I don't mind. I can deal with kind of okay. Besides, my grandpa is in ill health and I want to visit him before he gets in such ill health he doesn't recognize me or thinks badly of me. Besides, my psycho ex prevented me from traveling to see my grandma while she was sick and made me miss her funeral, and I still regret it. My grandma really boosted my self-esteem and made me feel like a diva when I hung out with her when I was a kid. :-) My grandpa taught me how to drive, hooked me on old show music (I learned later some of it is pretty racist, but I don't judge, different times), and I share with him a love of animals and a love of the outdoors. (He was a rice farmer, pretty cool right?) So all that to say, the least I can do is make sure he feels appreciated and taken care of for the last part of his life. I know if the roles were reversed he would do the same for me. :-)
Anyhoo, I have no issues in the mental health department. The transition off the meds was decidedly unremarkable. I had a few tense days and decided to cut out a dose of Bliss, and the tension level went back to baseline. Likewise, when I decreased the Bliss my eating returned to baseline as well. I have pretty much come to terms with the fact that it isn't entirely a med-based issue. I have dealt with a lot of family tension in the past (though, dare I say, I'm starting to enjoy my mom and dad's company now) by eating, and have done it half of my life. But change is never particularly easy, so it will take some time before I will be able to go back to eating "like I was 12" all the time. :-) I jumped the gun, and I apologize. But I have gotten it sorted out a good bit so it will all work out. I just have to stay away from my cousin's 7-layer dip, lol. It's quite epic. :-)
Well, I don't have a whole lot to write about today. I am always glad to see views on this page, so to those of you who do read the blog, thanks so much!! Hugs and cookies for you. :-)
Take care,
Shelly
On Friday, I am spending Easter with my family. I won't get into the deets, but there will be a lot of relatives there that I haven't seen in a couple of years. There are a few reasons for that, the main reason being that I don't always get along with my mom and dad when we are in close proximity like that. I have gone on trips with them in the past and it has been fun, but a lot more bickering and arguing then I could handle at the time. Plus, I don't particularly like traveling and neither does the lovely. We occasionally travel, but his schedule is very rigid and he doesn't get weekends off, so he has to use his vacation time when we actually do have vacations and things like that.
But I have decided to suck it up this time and actually go with them. I can't imagine it going very positively, but on the same token I can't imagine it going very negatively either. I think it will just be kind of okay, which I don't mind. I can deal with kind of okay. Besides, my grandpa is in ill health and I want to visit him before he gets in such ill health he doesn't recognize me or thinks badly of me. Besides, my psycho ex prevented me from traveling to see my grandma while she was sick and made me miss her funeral, and I still regret it. My grandma really boosted my self-esteem and made me feel like a diva when I hung out with her when I was a kid. :-) My grandpa taught me how to drive, hooked me on old show music (I learned later some of it is pretty racist, but I don't judge, different times), and I share with him a love of animals and a love of the outdoors. (He was a rice farmer, pretty cool right?) So all that to say, the least I can do is make sure he feels appreciated and taken care of for the last part of his life. I know if the roles were reversed he would do the same for me. :-)
Anyhoo, I have no issues in the mental health department. The transition off the meds was decidedly unremarkable. I had a few tense days and decided to cut out a dose of Bliss, and the tension level went back to baseline. Likewise, when I decreased the Bliss my eating returned to baseline as well. I have pretty much come to terms with the fact that it isn't entirely a med-based issue. I have dealt with a lot of family tension in the past (though, dare I say, I'm starting to enjoy my mom and dad's company now) by eating, and have done it half of my life. But change is never particularly easy, so it will take some time before I will be able to go back to eating "like I was 12" all the time. :-) I jumped the gun, and I apologize. But I have gotten it sorted out a good bit so it will all work out. I just have to stay away from my cousin's 7-layer dip, lol. It's quite epic. :-)
Well, I don't have a whole lot to write about today. I am always glad to see views on this page, so to those of you who do read the blog, thanks so much!! Hugs and cookies for you. :-)
Take care,
Shelly