Not directly related to the post, but I'm sure I will have the aforementioned song stuck in my head all day.
I don't really have any new drama to report, except that I am in the process of getting off a medication that I have been on for 11 years. Apparently the dose was way too high and was working against me rather than for me. That has happened to me a lot over the last five years, when my bipolar diagnosis was reversed and pretty much returned no other significant diagnoses. I found out that I actually did a lot better off most of the meds than I did on them. Go figure. :-)
My parents have been out of the house for a little while now, giving me some much needed time off. They always want me to come with them on trips, but honestly I love the alone time more than I do going on trips! Maybe it's the hermit in me, but I always preferred a quiet house with a kitty, coming and going when I wanted and as little human interaction as possible. Then again, I am always on the internet and spending time with my fiancé when he has time off so I'm not completely cut off from the world.
I went to the monastery for the first time since last June. It was a pleasant trip away from the city, although it was too cold to walk around the grounds and get my nature on. I sat for meditation and it was slightly agonizing, as it usually is when you first sit meditation after being out of practice. There are several activities before and after meditation, but I stayed only for the meditation and the lunch, which is mostly vegan with some vegetarian items. I am going back next Sunday, and possibly Thursday for a seated meditation in St Louis City. My fiancé has Wednesday and Thursday off so we may be hanging out that Thursday evening.
On a more weight loss related note, I had gotten up to 196 pounds a few days ago after a few unsuccessful attempts at getting back on my diet in the previous months. I tried Shakeology but didn't find it particularly useful for the price I paid for it, and it didn't make a very good substitute for the BMR Bliss. In fact, as in previous attempts to get off the BMR Bliss, my weight shot up dramatically, almost 10 pounds. The Shakeology was okay on its own, but mostly did nothing. Combined with the BMR Bliss it made me slightly anxious. So I stopped the Shakeology and switched from one BMR Bliss pill to two. Then I lost seven pounds of water weight over three days, and I am now around 189 or so. I am relieved for sure, and maybe I can break through this five pound range I have been in for the past couple of months.
Also, my endurance has gone down quite a bit while I was off track for a few weeks. I assume I am not getting enough exercise to maintain my endurance, or getting the right nutrient balance. I rode the stationary bike for only 10 minutes and was exhausted, which concerned me a little bit. But then, I haven't really cooked anything, and have been surviving on microwave stuff. It is not my usual way of doing things, I just haven't felt like doing much lately. But seeing my life stuck in this continuous rut bothers me enough to start taking better care of myself. :-)
I think I've about covered everything. Not really a lot of drama going on, just business as usual. I hope you all have an awesome day.
With metta,
Shelly
I don't really have any new drama to report, except that I am in the process of getting off a medication that I have been on for 11 years. Apparently the dose was way too high and was working against me rather than for me. That has happened to me a lot over the last five years, when my bipolar diagnosis was reversed and pretty much returned no other significant diagnoses. I found out that I actually did a lot better off most of the meds than I did on them. Go figure. :-)
My parents have been out of the house for a little while now, giving me some much needed time off. They always want me to come with them on trips, but honestly I love the alone time more than I do going on trips! Maybe it's the hermit in me, but I always preferred a quiet house with a kitty, coming and going when I wanted and as little human interaction as possible. Then again, I am always on the internet and spending time with my fiancé when he has time off so I'm not completely cut off from the world.
I went to the monastery for the first time since last June. It was a pleasant trip away from the city, although it was too cold to walk around the grounds and get my nature on. I sat for meditation and it was slightly agonizing, as it usually is when you first sit meditation after being out of practice. There are several activities before and after meditation, but I stayed only for the meditation and the lunch, which is mostly vegan with some vegetarian items. I am going back next Sunday, and possibly Thursday for a seated meditation in St Louis City. My fiancé has Wednesday and Thursday off so we may be hanging out that Thursday evening.
On a more weight loss related note, I had gotten up to 196 pounds a few days ago after a few unsuccessful attempts at getting back on my diet in the previous months. I tried Shakeology but didn't find it particularly useful for the price I paid for it, and it didn't make a very good substitute for the BMR Bliss. In fact, as in previous attempts to get off the BMR Bliss, my weight shot up dramatically, almost 10 pounds. The Shakeology was okay on its own, but mostly did nothing. Combined with the BMR Bliss it made me slightly anxious. So I stopped the Shakeology and switched from one BMR Bliss pill to two. Then I lost seven pounds of water weight over three days, and I am now around 189 or so. I am relieved for sure, and maybe I can break through this five pound range I have been in for the past couple of months.
Also, my endurance has gone down quite a bit while I was off track for a few weeks. I assume I am not getting enough exercise to maintain my endurance, or getting the right nutrient balance. I rode the stationary bike for only 10 minutes and was exhausted, which concerned me a little bit. But then, I haven't really cooked anything, and have been surviving on microwave stuff. It is not my usual way of doing things, I just haven't felt like doing much lately. But seeing my life stuck in this continuous rut bothers me enough to start taking better care of myself. :-)
I think I've about covered everything. Not really a lot of drama going on, just business as usual. I hope you all have an awesome day.
With metta,
Shelly